Embracing Anger : To Awaken the Fire Within
Throwing myself on the floor, roaring, dancing wildly round the house, throwing tantrums, screaming my lungs out, and so much more!!!
It's been a powerful process of actually admitting to myself finally that I had a LOT of suppressed rage inside and that it was time to befriend my demon and let it out to play!
And as a deeply sensitive and 'feeling person', anger is such a misunderstood part of my rainbow of feelings after all...
I have had a lot of experience with the familiar 'positive' feelings of JOY, the murky depths of SADNESS and of course that dark old monster in the cupboard - FEAR, but I have felt deeply triggered by ANGER, particularly in suppressing, transmuting or smothering my own anger as well as hiding and shutting down in the presence of the anger in others.
We're told that it's not 'good', 'healthy', 'attractive' or 'lovable' to be angry. And this is a very popular misconception!
I have found recently that through letting go of the old stories of feeling unsafe, threatened, fearful, scared & traumatised by anger & FULLY UNLEASHING my own RAGE and fully allowing the RAGE to come through in the ones I love - I am capable of being more loving, compassionate, authentic, aware & alive in my experience of feeling the fulness of my emotions!
On the weekend I want to a transformational workshop on reclaiming my RAGE at "Reclaiming Anger Reloaded" with Gero von Aderkas & Stacia Karina Beazley from The Art of Relating, here in Melbourne.
Not only was I given FULL PERMISSION to release my rage at this workshop but I was encouraged to be as LOUD as I could be and fully release anything and everything stuck & held in my body, my mind, my story, my heart, and anywhere else the anger may have been hiding.
I LOVE FIRE week in my own work with Elemental Voices as it teaches us how to access the FIRE within - the passion, the power, the purpose, the safe boundaries, the full body YES, NO and so much more. I really LOVE to give others permission to really 'go there' with whatever feelings and emotions need to be expressed and it felt SO GOOD to finally be given the permission and taken to the space where I could unleash my own rage within.
We were assured that - It's OK to be angry! It's OK to give a VOICE to RAGE! It's OK to be LOUD and TAKE UP SPACE and BE POWERFUL!!!
We were reminded that : Anger is HEALTHY!!!!!!
And until now, I would have tended to disagree, based on my own traumas, stories & triggers relating to anger which were all stored in my body.
There's so much 'story' around anger...
Anger has a bad wrap!
Let's be honest, anger has a lot of shame attached to it, it's feared, it's thought to be risky, threatening, destructive, triggering, scary, confronting, traumatising, chaotic, pointless and irrational, right?
What if it's not?
What if anger, released healthfully, on a regular basis actually creates TRUST in relationships by making way for MORE clear, open, honest communication?
What if anger that is given a voice and space to express itself more fully actually creates more authenticity, more truth, more trust, more freedom, more clarity, more awareness and more peace?
Is this even possible?
I think so!
The voice of anger is a voice of passion, of boundaries, of guidance and of action. The voice of anger is quick and determined and brings positive change! Anger released in a healthy way breaks old structures, patterns and stories and actually allows us to take a stand and rise up against what oppresses us and shine out light more brightly in the world.
Anger fully expressed is making a choice and DOING IT!!!
ANGER IS OK!!!
Honestly, it surprises me to say this after a life time of being terrified by anger and triggered into trauma and a childlike state of 'frozen in fear' around even the slightest anger, but now, I feel better. I feel that I have the space within me to be ok when others are in rage and when I am too.
I sense that I can hear the voice behind the anger, the one that wants to be heard, the one that feels vulnerable, scared, in need of understanding. And I am listening.
I am listening.
I feel clear, I feel more present, I feel more solid in myself and I feel lighter.
I feel better.
I will continue to release my RAGE in the most healthy way possible.
I will continue to use the skills I learned to deal with my own and other peoples anger from Stacia & Gero for a long time to come!
I am grateful to feel more soft, gentle, light and full in my power.
Present, alert, calm, centred, free.
Love Clare xXx
A POEM ON ANGER BY JEFF FOSTER
BE GENTLE WITH ANGER
Be gentle with anger.
Bow before it.
It is not what you think it is.
Let it come closer, let it enter you if it must.
Feel its power.
Until there is no division between 'self' and 'anger'.
Until you cannot call it 'anger' at all.
Until there is only fire, passion.
But no violence.
Anger is the roar of a lion, the cry of a universe longing to be born.
It reminds you, when you have forgotten,
That the power of life moves through you.
That you have a voice.
Do not push your anger away, or label it 'negative' or 'unspiritual'.
Do not pretend it is not there.
No need to act it out, either.
Feel its pounding, its vibrations, its longing to be acknowledged, held.
At its burning core, discover courage.
The courage to be yourself.
To hold your path, fearlessly.
To speak for those without a voice.
To stand up for truth, with passion and dignity.
To roar with love.
Know that your heart is vast and spacious,
and anger, so often misunderstood,
has a home in you,
- Jeff Foster